Ponderings of the Morning....

It is 6:30am and all is quiet at my house. Dean left for work and Logan is fast asleep in his bassinet. So I was left to my thoughts this morning and instead of trying to beat the guiness world record for fastest shower ever taken (in an effort to make the baby stop crying!) I took a moment to ponder the recent happenings in my life.

First of all, we all know that October is breast cancer awareness month. But for those who don't know, October is also Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. So to all the mommy's who suffer in silence or suffer out loud, my thoughts and prayers are with you always, but especially as I remember the month of October. We will never forget those precious lives that came and went so quickly. I ran into a lady this past Monday, that was in one of my support groups. She said she went to the meeting this month (I unfortunately missed it) and there was a different moderator/leader of the group this time. She had never met her, but I had and knew that this woman was openly a Christian woman. However this girl did not want to pray - she just wanted to ponder and remember her son. I was reminded that sometimes as Christians we need to take a step back into humanity and realize that not everyone is as open to God or prayer as we are to share him - especially in times of loss. This woman was angry at God for 'taking her baby'. This is not to say we should not share our faith - but that we should always be sensitive to the timing. We can be examples of God's love just by listening and silently waiting for God's time. Being a friend to someone who is grieving is exactly who God would want us to be.

On a happier note - I found out this week that one of my infertility friends is preggo! Praise the Lord. She has suffered loss as well so I am praying for a healthy pregnancy, both physically and emotionally, and delivery. Pregnancy after loss can be so hard but I can't tell you how excited I am for her and her family.

And straying away from all of this...Dean got a voicemail last night from Dow Corning. He has the awaited interview!!!! October 30th...so please pray for him! :) This morning I let my mind drift over what it would be like to be able to work part time instead of full time. But I drew myself back to reality long enough to remind myself not to put the cart in front of the horse.

In other news...Logan is growing growing growing. He is starting to smile some and can definitely hold his head up for extended periods. He loves to stare - but we can never figure out what he is staring at. He has to go the doctors today for a shot. We also have all his paperwork in place so we can request his actual birth certificate! Woohoo...

In all of my ponderings I am reminded that God is who he is in the good times and the bad times. He always brings us to the places we are supposed to be, even when the process hurts and we don't understand it.